All right, so I have done it! And how appropriate that I am updating my
blog exactly one month after my last post, Strength?!
So what exactly have I done, you may ask. Let me tell you. I exercised my true strength. I flexed my bulging biceps. I let the truth ring from my vocal
chords. I made the decision that I will
no longer accept what is unacceptable and that I will no longer subject myself
to a situation that is doing nothing but harming my psyche (and depriving me of my sleep).
In other words, I put my foot down, and I quit. I quit my job, which in my life, means I then
also had to change my residence, as they are one in the same in the world of
yachting. And I couldn’t feel better.
Free at last, free at last, thank God almighty I am free at
last!
(Yes, that is how strongly I feel about this.)
So not only did I have to exercise my strength by (1) deciding
I can and will take this leap. No matter what, I will be
all right. ;) But also because (2) I had to let go of a few fabulous plans I
had for later in the year by telling myself they will still happen if they are
meant to (visiting dear friends and do some hiking in New Zealand and Australia. Boo-hoo!!!! Fingers-crossed I can still pull this one off!).
Finally, I exercised my strength by, perhaps most importantly, (3) by
speaking up for myself and for my fellow crewmates, as to what is acceptable
and what is not (again).
Unbeknownst to me, my leaving was not going to be as simple
as even that. My unexpected move caught
the attention of a few other higher-ups (as in the BIG boss), resulting in
myself being summoned for a meeting with some big-wigs I am not normally
involved with to discuss my reasons for leaving.
I will not share what I said, but I will say that I spoke my
truth with as much clarity and love as I possibly could. I didn’t turn it into a he-said, she-said
thing, and I didn’t finger-point or blame.
I simply gave the facts, in a compassionate way. And thank my lucky stars, the person(s) I
spoke with were very receptive, and understanding.
After that conversation, I was finally able to feel some peace
in this situation knowing I had been HEARD. I don’t know what action will be taken to help
the situation now that I am gone, or if anything will even happen at all. But at least I feel that I have done my
part. I spoke my truth, and I got the
ball rolling by shedding some light on what can be improved, for the sake of the crew as a whole. Perhaps I inspired a few
others to stand up for themselves as well, or maybe not. At least I showed that it can be done. All I know is that I did what was best for
me, by honoring the truth of who I am.
So even though I am now back at my Mom’s residence for a
bit, and am technically “out of a job”, I couldn’t feel more proud of myself for doing what I did. It was certainly
a learning experience as well as a golden opportunity to show myself just how
strong I really am. And to show myself
just how greatly I have grown.
(This is where I pat myself on the back.) ;)
My Mantras as of late (feel free to make them your own) :
I SPEAK and LIVE my TRUTH with CLARITY and LOVE.
I RELEASE all that I no longer need.
Hooray!! :) And hells-to-the-yeah!!
P.S. Happy Blue Moon!!
P.S. Happy Blue Moon!!
