Thursday, July 28, 2011

Bird in a Cage

There was a dream and one day I could see it, like a bird in a cage, 
I broke in and demanded that somebody free it," 
~ from the song “Head Full of Doubt/Road Full of Promise” by The Avett Brothers. 

So many of us hold on desperately to our dreams without realizing that we are strangle-holding them.  Clutching onto what we hold most dear.  The best thing to do when you realize this is to release it, let it go.  Set it free.  Free to be whatever it may turn out to be.

Anyhow, I always get a rush of inspiration when I hear this song.  I hope you do too.  Enjoy.  



Monday, July 25, 2011

Silly Fish

"It is a silly fish that is caught twice with the same bait."  This is what my fortune cookie said today.  I had to laugh when I read it, because right about now I fear I may be a very silly fish.  


Saturday, July 23, 2011

In-Between

 As much as I accept and welcome change, I never really love that in-between phase, the adjustment period.  Neither here nor there, the past still very fresh and important, and the future not quite formed yet.  At least I am at the point where the decision has been made, and action has been taken, as the decision-making can sometimes be the most difficult for me.  But I have made the change.  I am on a new boat, working for new owners, in a new location, with a new Captain and a new crew.  Although, as I said, I am neither here nor there. 

My old boat is just a memory, and my old crew, who were my family for over a year, are now just people I tell stories about.  Of course I am still in touch with them, but as far as my new crew are concerned, this old family of mine is irrelevant.  In addition, that “family” will never physically exist again.  Meaning, those same 10 people will never be physically together again.  It’s sad really. 

I do believe that we must first let go of what we have to make room for the new.  I have let go, and I have grasped onto the new.  Unsure of where this move will take me.  Unsure of whether I have made the “right” decision or not.  Although, one of my friends from what seems like a lifetime ago, (before I even entered the world of yachting), once told me that I don’t need to worry about making the “right” decision, because whatever decision I make, will BE the right one.  I will make it so.  I thought that was very wise, and I remind myself of that often, whenever I am faced with a crossroads (as I often am). 

But for now, I am in-between.  I am just in the beginning phases of befriending my new crew.  Working out the quirks, seeing if I fit in with them, and if they are a fit for me.  It all works out with time.  But patience never was a virtue of mine.   So in-between I remain.  In-between what exactly, I can’t really even tell you.   But I look forward to getting closer to wherever it is that I am going with every day.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Travel Day...

The day is almost over.  I am quite wiped out after a long day of flying and driving.  Currently, I am fighting off sleep, as I lay sprawled out on my hotel room bed, with my computer on my lap, and some delicious Thai curry in my belly.  Anxiously awaiting tomorrow, when I will meet up with my new crew, and see, for the first time, my new home and place of work.  In other words, I will get the first glimpse of my new world and my new life.


It's funny how some decisions I mull over and over, while others just simply happen with little to no effort. The decision to join this boat was the latter; it just simply happened.  And I feel good about it.  Whether this yacht  turns out to be a dream or a nightmare, or just somewhere in between, I know it is meant to be.  I know this opportunity  will produce an event, person, or lesson of significance for me, and I look forward to finding out just what that may be. 


Now, I simply must go to bed.  That decision took no effort at all.  'Night!

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Gratitude: New Gig

Today I am grateful to have the opportunity to start working on a new boat.  Tomorrow morning I will be flying to meet my new boat and crew.  Although, luckily, I am already one step ahead, as I have already met the entire crew, since my good friend Tami is the chef on this particular yacht.  Actually that was one of the major deciding factors, the fact that I already knew the crew was cool and laid-back.  Another added bonus, is that the boat is in Lake Michigan, very close to home!  So, hooray for new adventures!  I am excited to see what comes of all of this, and rest assured, I will keep my blog up-to-date on what all goes down!  Thanks new Captain, new boat and crew!!  

Friday, July 15, 2011

La Luna


La Luna La Luna.  Majestic and strong.  You light the path before us when we cannot see what lies ahead.  Your strength controls the tides, the woman’s body, human emotions, intuition, imagination, our sleep, our dreams, and the memory of times before and beyond our own knowing.  Your mystery, beauty, and feminine strength have lasted for eons and will last forever more.  La Luna.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Gratitude: Peeps

Short and sweet.  I am grateful for my lovely friends.  Near and far.  International and local.  Thanks to Skype, Facebook, Gmail, and Blogger, we are able to easily keep in touch. :)  Love you all!  Cheers!

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Gratitude: Starbucks, yes Starbucks


Ok, let me elaborate.  Specifically, I would like to thank Starbucks’ person in charge of selecting the music played in their stores.  Dear Miss, Mrs., or Mr. Corporate Music Selector, you are doing a truly splendid job.  Really.  Song after song, I am surprised and pleased by what I am hearing.  It’s almost like I am listening to my favorite radio station from home, 89.3 The Current.  And this does lead me to further explanation.  I have been spending a bit of time in Starbucks lately.  It’s true.  I confess.  The atmosphere is chill, the music rocks, and I can sit, uninterrupted, in a cushy leather armchair typing away on my computer for hours on end for the price of a hot tea.  Isn’t Starbucks grand?  Today, Starbucks, you are worthy of my deepest Gratitude!  Muchas Gracias!

Monday, July 11, 2011

Gratitude: Hermit-Time!

Today, I am grateful for quiet time.  Yes, quiet.  I am so used to living in an environment where I am constantly (as in truly 24-7), surrounded by other people.  In close-proximity.  The same people.  Chatting all day, going out many of the nights.  Ok, you’ve figured it out, a yacht crew. Even since I left my boat last month, while staying in a crew house, I still have been surrounded by friends everyday and night (which is wonderful and amazing).   That is, until the past week or so.  Pretty much all of my friends in the area have now left with their prospective boats or have flown home.  Leaving me quite alone.  And to be honest, I am enjoying it.  Don’t get me wrong, I love my yachtie folk dearly, but I haven’t been truly, physically alone for ages (2009 perhaps?).  So this actually is a treat for me.  The first two days, I just chilled out.  As in, I didn’t leave the house, or the couch for that matter.  I watched movies and surfed the net- it’s amazing how much of a time suck the Internet can be!  (Says the girl who has a blog and hopes people will read it!  Ha!)  But after that initial lazy-fest, I now have a great new energy and motivation.  I am cooking healthy delicious meals (vegetarian, wheat-free and corn-free) for myself, and sometimes my roommate, although he wrinkles his nose when I tell him there is no meat in the dish.  I also have a renewed dedication to my blog.  Yes, I know I was seriously slacking, sorry.  Overall, I am pleased with my hermit-time.  I’m sure it won’t last for long, so I am going to enjoy it while it lasts.  So today, my gratitude goes to being given this opportunity to be a hermit.  A happy hermit.  Hooray! 

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Gratitude: Funny IS Sexy

Today I went to see Bridesmaids, hi-larious.  Loved it.  If you are craving a laugh-out-loud flick with heart, this movie will fit the bill.  Kristen Wig and Maya Rudolph are each amazing on their own, and are even better together.  I was especially touched by the ending scene (no, I am not about to ruin the movie for those of you who have not seen it), where Maya and Kristen rock out to one of their favorite songs.  It reminded me of myself and my friends, and how wonderful it is to have the type of people in your life that are not afraid to be silly and look like a fool.  Rather, I find people who are willing to laugh at themselves to be the ones with true strength.  In Bridesmaids' closing scene, Kristen and Maya showed their true strength and beauty, and that funny is sexy.  Kudos to them and a special kudos to the four other leading ladies and the men too!.  But sorry guys, today my gratitude goes out to funny, sexy, strong women!!  Rock on ;)

Snapshot of St. Barth’s

St Barth's 2010
Oh yes, the lovely, beautiful, picturesque island of Saint Barthelemy in the Caribbean.  St. Barth's is a little European oasis nestled amid the French West Indies.  As you walk down the streets past the shops and cafes, with mopeds and compact cars and trucks whizzing by, you could easily be fooled into thinking that you were in Europe.  Only a map would tell you otherwise.  In my case it was a nautical chart, since I had the pleasure of spending several months in Saint Barth’s while working on a private yacht. 

I can’t even tell you how many times we pulled into and out of Gustavia’s harbor on the West side of the island.  But every time, the excitement ran high among the crew.  We never tired of St. Barth’s.  As soon as you sail in, you see and feel the immediate difference from the other surrounding islands.  St. Barth’s truly is a little piece of Europe.  Being a territory of France, the inhabitants there are actually French, and as one can imagine, there is plenty of high fashion, amazing food and wine, charming architecture, and beautiful people.

Did I mention the beautiful people?  I am not kidding; everyone living in St. Barth’s is worthy of being a supermodel.  The girls working in the shops?  Models.  The men pouring concrete on the side of the street?  Models.  Tanned, lean, and gorgeous, all of them.  We had to chuckle to ourselves, that of course, only in St. Barth’s would every delivery boy, bartender, and dishwasher be deemed worthy of the cover of Vogue.  The women of course had the classic understated, natural French look; wearing little to no makeup, with tousled, messy, yet sexy hair.  And in classic French style, all the women, young or old, had a certain sex appeal that American culture for whatever reason does not embrace.  So don’t forget to pack your self-esteem in your handbag, or you’ll shrink like a wallflower next to these beauties.

The fashion itself was very classy and what one would expect from the combination of France and the Caribbean.  Very laid-back, no-fuss attire; flowy dresses, linen tops and pants.  For women, a straw hat and stylish belt were essential. The men wore fitted T’s, linen pants or capris.  Everyone, of course, wore designer sunglasses.  It was very easy to pick out the locals from the cruise-shippers.  No offense, cruisers.

Shell Beach 
Oh my, I haven’t even mentioned the beaches yet.  The beaches are also very French, and not for the shy, as you are sure to see topless women (of all ages), as well as the occasional person completely in the nude (both men and women, and yes of all ages).  You have been warned.  Besides the eye-candy (and the not-so-much eye-candy), the beaches themselves are breathtaking.  Shimmering blue-green water and soft white sand to dig your toes into. Every beach is surrounded by steep hills creating a safe harbor for the many sailboats that come in to anchor.  It’s the perfect setting for a lovely afternoon picnic.  Chilled pink wine is optional, but highly recommended.

Getting around is easy, as nearly everyone in St. Barth’s speaks English.  There are plenty of cabs, or you can walk between certain towns, as long as you don’t mind hiking up very steep hills.  There is a huge tourist draw to St. Barth’s, many smaller cruise ships anchor there, yachting is very popular, and the rich and famous love to vacation there as well.

So far it sounds great, right?  You are probably ready to pack your bags and book your flight to come and mingle with the celebs and lovely locals.  Yes?  Well, unfortunately, there is one drawback.  St. Barth’s is, without a doubt, obscenely expensive!!!  Everything is in the euro, and because it is so pristinely well kept, imports lovely wines, cheeses and other products across the Atlantic from France, and being it is a tourist’s paradise, the cost for anything and everything is high. 

On example of how expensive it is in St. Barth’s is the cute little shop where we’d buy our provisions for the yacht.  We called it the “Million Euro Shop” because you could never get out of there without spending oodles of money.  Example: one avocado cost us 5.  Five euros!  For ONE avocado.  That is roughly $7 for an avocado!  Is that insane or what?  And this is where we did the majority of our grocery shopping.  Gorgeous vine-on tomatoes from France, cooking sauces from Japan, organic milk from the States, fresh lobsters just caught that morning off St. Barth’s shores, oh, and kettle potato chips for the crew, all added up quite quickly.  Thank goodness the yacht was paying, otherwise we would have starved while in St. Barth’s. 

As for any other shopping, one might have guessed it, expensive.  A random (but beautiful) linen flowy top would cost, minimal 200, going on up to 500, easily.  That’s $280-$710, for a top similar to the ones Target is now selling for $30 in their new Calypso St. Barth line (which was very clever of Target).  Similarly, any beauty product, lotion, or perfume was equally as expensive, but I did indulge in some Ligne St. Barth’s perfumes and lotions, which are divine, F.Y.I.

If you can foot the bill, or have a wealthy relative who will fund you, St. Barth’s is worth the trip.  It is one of my favorite places in the Caribbean, and I’d love to have the chance to go back.  Who wouldn’t love visiting a quaint little piece of France, speeding mopeds, lovely wines, beautiful people and all, set in the picturesque Caribbean?  Yes, point made, I do believe.

Here’s a list of some of my favorite places on the island:
Image from www.lignestbarth.com

Bar de L’Oubli – Lovely coffee, wines, and amazing french fries!
Baz Bar- Great drinks, live music (most bands were from NYC, go figure).
Le Select- Home of the famous “Cheeseburger in Paradise”, also the ONLY inexpensive place to get a drink- $3 (yes dollars) for any beer, wine, or mixed drink.  
Any of the beaches, but I frequented Shell Beach the most.
Ligne St Barth lotions and perfumes

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Memories to Keep, Memories to Toss


Image from www.layoutsparks.com/1/124631/memories-1-road-drive.html


Isn’t the memory-keeping file-cabinet within our minds amazing?  We store so many facts, figures, pictures, feelings, emotions, and more.  What types of memories do you keep?

Like most people, I have fond memories, funny memories, and sad memories.  At this moment in time, I am struggling with overcoming a hurtful memory.  Isn’t it strange how we allow a mere memory, an event or relationship from the past, control how we feel today?  It’s silly if you think about it.  What is really bothering me is that the majority of my struggle is not so much with the memory itself, but the fact that I am allowing this memory to hold such power over me.  I feel I have gotten to a point in my life where I am able to release negativity, therefore, denying it of its ability to affect me.  And that is why this memory haunts me so, because I can’t seem to shake its affect on me.  Logically, I know that events from the past have no power over my life TODAY, so why does this memory keep re-surfacing in my mind, and dredging up emotion?  Clearly, this is just another challenge, another lesson to learn.  Perhaps because I have been doing well with releasing the old, I am now given a tougher one than usual to test my strength.  It certainly is challenging, but I will succeed in releasing it; there is no doubt.

The up side it that we can choose what we keep in that dusty old file-cabinet of memories, just as we can chose our thoughts and our life’s direction.  It is true that releasing old thoughts and memories that no longer serve us is a wonderful and healthy thing to do.  It may not be easy, but it is possible.  Also, equally important is making sure to keep the fun, happy, and loving memories near and dear to your heart. 

My absolute favorite memories are the ones that make you laugh out loud when you recollect them.  Yes, of course I love re-hashing a funny story from the past with friends, but I am talking about the ones that make you laugh out loud while you are merely sitting by yourself, thinking about it.  Those are my favorite.  If you can laugh out loud while sitting all by yourself, you surely will hoot and holler with laughter when you recall the story with a friend.  These memories are always good counter-actors to the negative ones.  If you’re in a funk, think of one of these funny memories, there is no doubt your mood will elevate.

Whether you keep memories that make you laugh or make you cry, always remember that it is the Now that is most important.  It is what you say and do right now that creates who you are today.  It is the thoughts you choose today, the memories you chose to reflect upon today.  The hopes and dreams you have for the future.  No memory or event from the past has the power to control who you are today.  As with anything in life, balance is key.  True balance is being able to look at the past with fondness, look towards the future with hope, and feel gratitude for being exactly where you are today.  Enjoy today!

Gratitude: Nine Types of Light

Today's Gratitude goes to the awesome album and video made by TV on the Radio, called Nine Types of Light.  I love the music, and I love the imagination that went into the videos.  I also love the friends who turned me onto it.  :)  Thanks Wes & JP.  Check it out and Enjoy.
Nine Types of Light video